Entry #5: Breathing with Relief

I've finally confronted (hm...that's a strong word) my ex. Was he really serious about ending it, or was he merely taking a rest? It bothers me, this thought, and I refuse to keep having false hopes. I'm dangling in midair, too afraid to let go, too restless to stay on. And I don't want anymore presumptions or speculations. I need an answer there and then.

So I called and asked. And he said yes, he wanted to end it in earnest. I felt a surge of...relief, maybe? It was like the last of my chains had been dissolved, the knot in my stomach undone. More than anything, I was glad he came out with his true feelings. Hahaha, I could now breathe freely, without having doubts or hesitations. What's more, I can now truly be comfortable being around. I won't have to be so aware of his presence.

I'm really thankful to God for giving me the burst of courage to call him and clarifying things with him. And God, You have answered my prayer when I asked for strength to endure through this obstacle. I didn't realise it happening but it did. You lent me strength in the form of my friends, through their great support. I believe that this has happened for a reason, Lord, for I know that you have plans for me. I will simply await to find out what purpose you have for me. Amen.